I’ve been experiencing a purging this year and it has intensified in these last few months. Many things have been coming to the surface that I’ve been having to deal with and address as soon as possible. It’s been a rollercoaster, but I’m getting through it.
I wanted to apologize to you all for not being active on this blog. It was necessary though, I had a lot of shadow work that needed my attention. I’m still in the process of shedding the darkness, but I’ve reached a point where I will be more active once again.
All those who prayed, supported, and helped me on my journey I want to give a special thanks to. This process of awakening has been extremely difficult for me and I intend to one day share my story as to how it went for me.
As many of you know, life upon this planet can be very difficult. There are times in which all the despair, pain and suffering really get’s to us. Where we feel all is hopeless and pointless. Yet in reality there is cause for hope. What we are going through is a birthing process.
When we shed our own darkness we can then walk in the light. The darkness I have been dealing with is an internal one; I discovered that I had a lot of nasty, dark and very negative emotions within me. A lot of it is imprinted upon us through media, society and other influences, but then some of it is uniquely your own based upon your past and future lives.
My major problem was acceptance, I had a hard time accepting this reality as is. I felt and believed that the way this existence is setup is phony, fraudulent and deplorable. I even brought my objections to the Infinite Creator. I would argue with Source about everything. My mind would go into a frantic and start bringing things to the surface that justified my stance.
As I look back at it though, I see this was necessary in order for me to see aspects of myself that need to be dealt with. One can only become aware of the darkness when we allow it to come to the surface. Otherwise it lays dormant inside us and cannot be remedied.
Thus all the hardship, turmoil and struggles I’ve been experiencing are actually blessings in disguise. It’s a good sign that this is happening, because it allows me to resolve these issues. Each time we deal with a shadow aspect of ourselves not only do we release something that doesn’t serve us, but we make room for more love and light to enter into our being.
We hold many negative experiences, emotions and energies within our physical body. When we actively do shadow work we release these stored up negative energies and make room for the light to flow within us. Many have spoken about this before and this isn’t something new. This is the main reason for our negativity. We refuse to let go of things we supposedly don’t want, but yet when we are given the opportunity to let it go, many of us keep holding on to it. That’s what happened with me, but now I’ve realized that I have to let it go. Otherwise it will continue to spiral out of control. So I’m working on my internal critic and actively taking steps to be more positive, open-minded and acceptable.
I will be writing more once again, I’ll also be posting more articles from other sources as well. Again thank you all for your help and support. I love each and every single one of you and wish you many blessings.
With much Love,